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Sometimes, what we really want is to feel important so somebody. To someone. Where in the middle of the day, when you least expect it, when everything is going turmoil, everything is spiraling to a downwards direction, you receive a message, you receive a call, you see somebody you weren't expecting - a thoughtful message, hearing one's wonderful voice, a hug, a kiss, anything that will dwell in the positive that will keep you up for the rest of the day. Heck, for the rest of the week.

Doesn't have to be when you feeling down, better when you're feeling great. When you thought you can't get any happier and then THAT happens. When that dumb smile can't ever be removed. When every minute you remember it and always be nostalgic about it.

I want that. Everybody does. Sometimes when you do it to the person you love, you expect that everything is rainbows and unicorns but no, they wanted it to come from somebody else.

"But don't be sad", I tell myself. Keep on trying until trying will be a routine. Until you get too used to it, it's like an everyday thing that you do like taking a bath. Yawning. Like breathing.

It's her birthday tomorrow. I'm not as excited as I used to. Let's see what happens next.